Tough kid

I still remember each bit of this incident so clearly in my mind. I was in 4th class,down with hepatitis A (we used to call it as Jaundice at that time) during July,2002. It was very hot during summers at my place. We didn't have cooler even and electricity supply used to be at peak of scarce during those days. My parents used to force me to eat curd rice all the time as some neighbour told them its being instant cure of jaundice. I don't know the mechanism till now despite being a doctor.

So, during all these struggles, came my half yearly exams. I ,being a topper of all my school exams, didn't know how to skip that exam. I somehow started believing in my childhood that my worth was only if i were a topper or would get highest marks in the class and School. Those who have gone through this pressure in their lives can surely relate to it. It's enormous to carry this burden at such young age.

My parents never wanted me to give that exam but somehow i managed to convince them. Now the tough part was to study and get good grades in that exam. I called up one of my friends to know the syllabus and started preparing accordingly. I was really weak at those times like a lean thin young kid from a lower middle class family would look like and that too when sick.

I prepared really hard for my exams and i somehow managed to give each subject paper. I still don't know how but i got highest marks in exams and i was the topper. This was so satisfying at that age and first time in my life,i understood what confidence would really feel like. Since then, though I don't believe in God but somehow, some force always comes and tells me about the rights and wrongs i do. Spirituality may not make sense to you when you are young or blinded with your thoughts but as Buddha said " as candle cannot burn without fire, men can't exist without spirituality". I am happy where i am today and would love to share all these stories of my life- life of a successful average indian middle class kid. There may not be something magical but the struggles are real and how all these instances guide me to my way of spirituality. Hope you all will love that and support my blog.

Thanks,cheers everybody!!